Things had been said and done.

Perhaps, one of the most painful things had happened to us yesterday. If you think we took sides, okay, I'll admit I took one side. It's not because I just want to do it or because I hate you. It's because you also did something wrong, and I didn't like it when you told other people about it, and they think it was all our fault or what. We misunderstood you? I don't know what made you think that way, but all we know was WE'VE BEEN UNDERSTANDING YOU FOR SO LONG NOW. We can't say or do things that we want to say or do because WE ARE THINKING ABOUT HOW YOU'D FEEL. It wasn't our intention to be 'against you' but it turned out to be something like that. I know you won't believe me if I say that we weren't against you. We were just so tired. You said you've been understanding us for a million times. I'm sorry, but I don't know specifically when.

You were my first close friend when I moved to our school. It saddens me whenever I think about our memories together, but I'm happy because I found new friends because of you. If you think you're alone now, THINK TWICE. You just lost some members of your group, but not your friends. I'm still your friend, but don't expect me to act normally next week when we see each other.

Last night I was mad at you, but now I don't know if I'm still mad. All I know is that I'm still not ready to talk to you 'normally'. I might ignore you and I'll be sorry for that. You said that you've wasted your time, your tears and such, right? If you really did those things for us, you wouldn't think that you've wasted them.

The pain is still here. We all do feel that pain now. You know I also tried to save the CherriesZ. You are saying that you've shed more tears than us when we had problems. Let me tell you this now: IT'S NOT ABOUT HOW MANY LITERS OF TEARS YOU'VE SHED, IT'S ABOUT HOW YOU HANDLED EVERYTHING. Okay, crying is your way of letting everything out, but it won't solve anything.

CherriesZ:
It's not because I quit, I won't be your friend anymore. Well, if you don't consider me one now, it's really up to you. Aia is still alive. It's just that I'm not one of you anymore. You can still cry on my shoulder or talk to me when you need me. Besides, I'm still a JUMPer. I'll still be me (just without the label of being a Cherry).

First Week of School!!!

Hello, everyone!
I'm back after a week or so.
I wasn't able to post here because I always don't know what to post here :)
I won't make this long, so I'll start what I have to say.

Last Tuesday was our first day in school.
I was really excited, so I woke up early and went to school at 6:45 AM.
To my surprise, the high school building was so noisy and so crowded.
I looked for my friends then I looked for the list of our names, for me to know what section I belong.
When I found my name, I went to look for my classroom.
Some of my batchmates said that it's on the second floor, so I went there.
I looked for a seat, placed my bag and looked for my friends.
They were not at the same floor, so I asked some of our batchmates.
They said that they were downstairs.
I went down and looked for them.
I asked another batchmate, and she said they are upstairs.
I was really confused on where to go, so I went up again.
They weren't there.
I went down again.
Finally, I found them in one corner.
When they saw me, they shouted, and I also shouted..XD
We kept on talking to each other.
I almost lose my voice because we kept on shouting.

I really missed my CherriesZ!
Too bad we are not all classmates.
Mai and I are in one section, Haru and Yuna in another, and Yuki, Yuu and Ayumi in the other.
Well, at least I'm not alone.

The first week of school was quite busy since we already got tons of assignments plus the teachers are quite demanding [especially our adviser].
I know we can do this.
I can do this!
I'm really hoping for the best.

Until next post!
Bye~

June starts..

~i just realized that it's June 01, 2010 [which means we only have 1 more week of vacation]~
~this summer was one of the unforgettable summers of my life~
~it's my first summer as a member of CherriesZ~
~the first ever summer that i felt really sad leaving school~
~first summer where i met new friends [on Facebook and texting world]~


~sorry for this very short post~
~i just can't think of other words to type~
~i'm a bit blank today [and i don't know why]~

hope no one's missing in action!!!

well, today is a special day for one of my friends.
i can't tell you what occasion it is, but i'm sure it's special for her.
but since yesterday, someone is missing in action.
i hope that person isn't missing in action today.

if that person is missing then my friend will really be sad :(

patay talaga siya pag di xa nagparamdam sa kaibigan ko.
hindi naman ako ang magagalit kung hindi ang kaibigan ko.
sa tingin ko naman hindi niya makakalimutan ang araw na ito.

i know this is the exact date.
they are not wrong in making this date as a special day.

ay ambot na lang gd ah.
tani lng gd matext siya or matawag.

kabalo ko nga nagsige na lng to ug huwat ang usa.
luoya pud kung dili siya makatawag niya o makatext man lng.

hmm..
sorry guys, can't tell you what this post is really all about.
it must be kept as a secret :D

Classes are approaching :)

... it's less than a month till the classes start ...
... i'm quite excited because i'm gonna see my friends again, but i don't want to meet the teachers ...
... other students say that teachers in 3rd and 4th years are strict ...
... i just hope we'll have a great Junior year ...

... i'm so excited to talk, laugh and be noisy again with the CherriesZ ...
... see you soon, guys ...

Unforgettable Moments with my CherriesZ

For the whole school year I was with my CherriesZ, and I really miss those times together.
I'll have to check my memory meter and try to list down some moments with them.
Good luck to me!

1. Jill will always accept any food that Liezl will give her. TAKE NOTE: ANY!
2. I'm always the last one to finish eating during lunch, and Shaira's lines are: "May mas hinay pa cmu magkaon? Wala na!"
3. When I gave them chocolates, Jill's line was: "Butangan ko naman ni "from: Arianne, to: Jill...ipafreeze ko ni siya for 4 days."
4. When Jill and I took Liezl's brush and tried to act that we want to borrow it. We ended up hiding in the cubicle just to laugh.
5. When Klowie had to pass her journal to Ms. Bula, and Jill barred her on the corridor and said, "Miss, stop in the name of Love."
6. When Sabrina asks Ms. Dimzon if she knows Yuto, and Ms. Dimzon said yes. She kept on asking her everyday.
7. When Joanne always asks for my food during lunch.
8. When Joanne and I traded our food :)
9. When we inspect all the tables in the Lanai just to check the vandals.
10. When Jill sees something and get it.

My head is not really working.
I'll post other moments next time.
These are all for now.
Bye~

Things that I miss in School!!!!

I MISS SCHOOL!!!
I remembered once what I read (i forgot where i read it)
"School is when you long for summer, and summer is when we long for school"
Haiizt!
When there was school, I really hate it; but now, I want it back!!!

And so I listed the things that I would miss:

I will miss...

1. Waking up at 5:30 or 6 am and preparing everything in my bag in a rush :)
2. Wearing my uniform and I.D. XDDD
3. My all green stuff (backpack, plastic folder, lunch bag, water jug)
4. My classroom.
5. The first period subject--BIOLOGY!
6. Ms. Dimzon's "Benedicite"
7. Ms. Dimzon's corny jokes.
8. Ms. Dimzon's daily and weekly tests.
9. Flo at Lau discussions.
10. Ms. LP's nicknames to our classmates.
11. Ms. LP's shortcuts of names.
12. Ms. Reston's powerpoint presentations.
13. Ms. Reston's M.I.
14. Ms. Gatoc's plus points.
15. Ms. Gatoc's easy quizzes.
16. Mrs. Garay's "chafing dishes."
17. Mrs. Garay's stories.
18. Ms. Bula's complicated questions.
19. Ms. Bula's journal entries.
20. Eating in the cooking lab.
21. Talking at the Lanai while the others are cooking :)
22. Mrs. Quilantang's inspirational stories and informative information.
23. Mrs. Alarcon's Math formulas.
24. The green benches where we used to sit.
25. The missing trashcans.
26. Chesca's misspelled words.
27. Jennica's hair that I used to play with when I'm bored during the discussion.
28. Jay-Ann, Christine A., Jennica, Aleeza and Christia's asking of paper (every kind of paper).
29. Daye's sleeping session during discussion.
30. Anna's answers during English, Biology and CLE classes.
31. Irene's smiling face while answering the teachers' questions.
32. Aleeza's doodling on her seat using Elmer's glue.
33. Rose's brilliant answers to every question.
34. Bea's howling during Filipino class.
35. Nicole J.'s hand gestures when answering or explaining something in the class.
36. Ynna and Camille's sentences about Sushy.
37. Sushy's reaction when she hears her name in a sentence that her friends made.
38. Natalie, Chiara, Aleeza and Thea's designs for the bulletin board.
39. Angelique's smile when Ms. Bula calls her "45."
40. Franie and Leezo's song adaptations for M.I.
41. Danna's passing of small papers just to ask me something.
42. Jouise Cyl's asking if Shannin could ask or borrow something.
43. Shannin's reaction when I tell her she can ask or borrow something from me.
44. Dawn's male voice when she sang "Hawak Kamay" for our musical play.
45. Kim and Yen-yen's convincing powers to stop having the Star Section next school year.
46. Megan and Ysa's high scores in Biology NAT review.
47. Janine and Angela M.'s playing with rulers during Culinary Arts discussion.
48. Irene, Rose, Miren, Rachel and Aina's beautiful presentations.
49. Pilica's giving out of Noynoy Aquino stuff.
50. Amandeep's complaints when she's called to answer a question.
51. Jennine's empty wish list during Christmas Party that made me think hard on what to give her.
52. Monica's miscounting of the absentees every morning.
53. Annette's cute smile when she knows the answer to the question.
54. Alec's borrowing of my colored pencils whenever she feels like drawing.
55. Kaye's doodle whenever we are discussing at the Bio Lab.
56. Sean's eyes when she smile.
57. Janica's "Congratulations" and falling of her eye glasses.
58. Patty's reaction when she's tired of answering things.
59. Angela P.'s loud voice that awakens everyone when she's talking.
60. CherriesZ' laugh trips.
61. Klowie's notebook full of Japanese words and their translations.
62. Sabrina's craving for something and ends up buying water.
63. Jill's appetite.
64. Liezl's Rubi-like hair.
65. Joanne's blending when I'm singing.
66. Shaira's laugh when she thinks I'm already "pikon" with her jokes.
67. The cat named "Bio."
68. The exam papers.
69. The tons of quiz or long test everyday.
70. The loud talking before the Morning Praise and Flag Ceremony started.

I've got a lot of things to miss about school especially my sophomore year.
I'll miss my section II-St. Catherine. I can't list everything here now, so I'll end it up here.
I hope you had a view of what kind of school year was 2009-2010 for me.
This is all for now.
Bye~

New Story!!!

NEW STORY!!!!!
Yes! I've made a new story.
I know I haven't finished my two stories, but I made a new one.
The title is Jump then Fall.
I was listening to Taylor Swift's song when I was thinking of a title.
It has 5 characters only.
So, it's not that complicated like my other stories.
The characters are Aia, Ryutaro, Karam, Chinen and Riko.
The story is kinda weird, but I like it.
As of now, only Klowie is reading it.
I'm still in Chapter 2.
I'm planning of having 10 chapters only.
I promised myself that I won't drag this story anymore.
I'm thinking of posting it here or not.
I'm ashamed to post it here.
I'll still think about that.

This is all for now.
I hope I could finish the story within the month, so that I can continue my old stories.
I don't want to disappoint my friends.
Bye for now!

I've made my Decision

I've made my decision.
I've made up my mind.
I'm not saying "yes" to him.
I'll stick to being his best friend and nothing more.
This is not the right time for it.
I don't want to lie to my parents.
I'm not gonna break their trust.
I'm not gonna break the friendship.
I'll concentrate to my studies.
I'll be a good role model to my younger cousins/siblings.
I know this could wait.
If he could wait then it's good, but if not then it's okay.
For now, I just want to stay friends with him.
I'm not gonna say that I don't have feelings for him, but I just don't want any relationship.
I might hurt him, but I just have to do this for our own good.
I know this thing wouldn't do anything good at this point of time.
I hope things will get better after this decision.
For now, I haven't told him yet.
My decision is final.
I know I made the right decision.
The BEST decision.

I'm happy that I've learned how to control my feelings and fight the temptation.
It's hard, but I made it.
I'm happy with my family and friends.

Love or Friendship???

Last Friday was one of the i-was-happy-but-then-sad-and-scared-and-confused days of my life.
Now, it's Monday.
I'm so confused.
Since last Friday, I was really confused.
I don't know what to do.
Will I sacrifice the friendship for a new chapter?
Should I go for it though I know it would just ruin everything?
I don't want to hurt anyone.
I don't want my conscience to bother me every night when I go to sleep.
But somehow, I don't want to lose the one I love.
I still don't know what to do.
My friends tell me that if I really love him then I should go for it, but I don't want to lie.
They say that if I don't go for it, my heart won't let me sleep.
I'm now even more confused.
My heart and my mind are debating.
My values and my feelings are arguing.
What will I do?
What shall I do?
I don't want to rush everything.
I don't want things to happen when I'm not yet prepared.
I know the feeling is good, but the outcome might not be as good as it is.
I feel like I'm in the middle of Good and Bad.
Loving someone is not bad.
But loving at the wrong time sounds not good.
I want to make a final decision.
A decision that would benefit not just me, but also him.
A decision that is good not just for me, but for the both of us.

HELP!!!

What should I do?

Right now, I'm in a situation where in I don't know what to do.
A lot of things had happened and will still happen.
Sometimes, I just don't know how to handle things anymore.
Someone would text me that she's not in a good mood; next thing I know, I'm also not in the good mood.
I know that a secret can ruin everything.
Everything including FRIENDSHIP.
But what can I do?
It's not my secret, but now I'm hiding it also.
Someone asked me not to tell anyone about it.
I don't want to lie by saying such things as "I don't know," but I really don't think I'm the right
person to tell them.
I don't have the right to spill things out.
I still don't get the reason why I can't say it, but I'm sure that it can start another conflict between us.
I just hope that if ever they would know this, they would understand why we have to do hide it.
Now, she's mad.
I can't blame her for that.
I don't want to break her trust.
So, I'm still not saying it.
Unless she gives me permission.
I just don't know maybe at this time, they already know.
I know that no secret can't be revealed.
Please understand.
I don't want our friendship to be broken because of a secret.
I know we promised that we should not hide any secret from each other, but please understand that some secrets are really meant to be hidden.
I know the right time will come and you'll know about this.
I know it's hard for you because you don't it, but it's harder for me.

I'm really sorry.
I hope you would understand me.

Miss you all like crazy...:P

It's still the second week of summer, but I really miss you guys.
I know we've been chatting in YM and texting, but I still want to see you all.
It's not everyday that I would have the chance to chat with all of you.
That's why I all always have load, so that I could always text.
I also understand that not all of us have load :)).
And FYI, I have a lot of debt to my yaya.
But anyways, I'm looking forward to seeing you during the cards out on April 13.
If ever I won't be seeing you then I'll just wait until June 8 to see all of you.
Guys, I really missed you all.
Love you all.