Summer's Comin'

3 more days and we're off to school...
Students like me are super happy about it...but I'm kinda feeling sad...
Not because I don't want summer, but because I'm gonna miss my friends...
When I was in first year, I really didn't like going to school because I just have few friends (I was a new student before), but now I've got friends who made my school year exciting...
Now that the school year is ending, I'm gonna miss my friends...
I will miss laughing with them...I will miss just talking to them about random things...
I will miss every single laughter we shared...
We may have gone through a lot of things this year and a lot of circumstances tested our friendship...but at the end...we settled everything...
I'm happy because we are still friends and we remained friends despite the problems...
I'm so relieved because we all settled everything before the school year ends...

I really don't want this week to end because we won't be seeing each other for two months...but I'm still hoping we would see each other during summer...(by accident or coincidence XD)

Guys, thank you for making my year a meaningful one...
I really appreciate everything you did for me...
I hope you won't forget about me...
Thank you...thank you...thank you...
'Till next school year...
I will miss you all...
Love you all...

Boredom can lead to my loneliness

I've been online for almost 5 hours now, and yet no one is online...
I'm beginning to hate the world now...
I suddenly felt sad...
It's so hot, and I'm so bored...
Can't take this anymore...
Maybe I'll just go offline and just watch television....
This is all for now...
Just telling you how I feel...
Bye!

out of boredom post

oh well, i'm so bored...
Yuu and Mai left me in ym...
i'm all alone now...
i still can't leave now so i just want to post this...
...hahha...
i really don't know what to say....
so i'll just say some random stuffs now...
hahaha....
or not say anything at all..
hahahaha
i just don't know what to say....
i'll just post this anyway...
hahaha...
until next time...
expect that i'll be posting some 'out-of-boredom' posts...
hahahah....

A bunch of Fruits

out of boredom, my friends and i decided to name ourselves using the names of the fruits...
and so we came up with these names...

Aia: sandiya
nicknames: sandi, iya

Reiko: ubas
nickname: suba

Mai: langka
nickname: lang-lang or lang2x or lang2

Yuu: bayabas
nickname: yabs

Yuki: santol
nickname: tol

there you have it...a bunch of fruits...hahahah

I just love our Wonderland Train

Do you know what boredom and unlimited text can do???
They can bring you to other places...
Well in my case, every time I'm unli and Reiko or Mai are there, we always ride in our Wonderland Train...
..ahaha..
This may sound crazy...but we really love it when we are all bored, and all we have to do is make up stories out of our playful imagination...
I really want to be unli everyday, but I don't have money to reload again and again....
And besides, I can't text during weekdays....
hahahah....
In school, we also do that...
Every time we have nothing to talk about...we hop on our Wonderland Train....
No one knows we are doing this except for Reiko, Mai, Yuu and Yuki (i don't know if Yuki already knew about this since her attention is always on the food...XD..)

Anyways, I just want to share our favorite past time and hobby....
and here's the formula:
boredom + unlimited text + Reiko + Mai = Wonderland Train

Goodbye February

it's the last day of February...
tomorrow it's March...
how time flies..
the whole month of February was the most depressing month for me...
a lot of things have happened...
I don't know where to start...
I had a lot of sleepless nights with teary eyes...
last night was the last night I'll cry for the month of Feb..
after crying, I realized...it won't bring back the time...
but it was good that I cried because I had an outlet for all my emotions...
life must go on as they say...
but I still don't know how to start again...
seems like I'm stuck in the past...
still hoping everything will be back to normal like it used to be...
as the days go by...
I'm slowly trying to accept that everything has changed and that no matter how I cry or how I wish things would be normal...it's just no use...
I know things will get better in time...
but I'm not sure when will that be...
I still need time to accept everything that's happening right now...
though my mind is saying that I already accepted it...
my heart would say otherwise....

hoping for better things to come this month of March...

Don't know what to feel about them....

O-kay...something happened this lunch time...

Don't know what to call it...

Was it a conference or something???

Never mind it...

But I really felt bad about what happened...

They talked to us and they left us...

I didn't know why they did that...

Were they pissed off by us?

Maybe yes...

Because we weren't saying anything?

Was that the problem?

These are the questions that ran into my mind the moment they left us...

I wanted to be happy but I know I can't...

I don't understand every single thing that is happening to us right now...

No matter how I try to be happy, to laugh...

I really can't...

I don't want to feel bad about them but I can't help it...

I'm out of words right now...

Don't know what to say anymore...

I just want to express what I'm feeling right now...

With all the school works and this problems....

I'm not feeling well....

It's hard for me to be on the mood again...

I maybe happy or I may laugh but deep down....it's hurting...

Can't smile without feeling the pain inside...

Tomorrow is our monthsarry and I don't think I'm in the mood to celebrate....

I hope my friends would understand me...

Things changed...

People changed...

go back in time

if only i could go back in time....when i first met you....(u know who u are)

and if i can only stop the time from running....i won't let it come up to this point....

up to this point i'm still thinking why did it happen????

before i end this...just wanna say...

i would really miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my heart's torn to pieces...

is this really goodbye? i know it's your own decisions and i have nothing to do with it...but i still can't process in my mind what you said...in behalf of all our friends...i'm saying sorry for not being honest enough to tell you what's in our heads...we just don't have the courage to tell you and it was so sudden and we weren't prepared for it...there's nothing wrong with me if you left us...but the fact that you have been ignoring us for a few days already, it doesn't seem right...i know we're all feeling awkward but i think there's something going on...and we don't really understand that "something". i'm sorry if i can't tell you these things in person...this is the only place where i can express my feelings towards the situation...if it's hard for you...it's also hard for us...it's so hard for me to face you and laugh with you when i know deep down, i'm not comfortable...we've been through a lot and i don't want those things to put into waste...like what you said...we're still friends and i hope you won't forget that...it seems that everything has changed and though we are on the same ground...it feels like we're living in different worlds...very different...to tell you...i'm so sad about it...no one would be happy if they were put into my shoes...whenever i remember it...i feel i wanna cry but i know that crying has nothing to do with it...i still can't understand everything...i still need to clear up my mind...

no matter what happens, i'm still here...

Life's Realizations

Life is like a computer game. You are the one who is controlling it. In each level, there is a corresponding challenge. You need to surpass it in order to move on to the next level. The higher the level, the harder the challenges. In life, we can encounter a lot of difficulties, trials and challenges but we must not surrender. We should remember that everything has its own purpose. God won't give us trials that we can't face; He wouldn't give us problems we can't solve. Life is a gift; a gift that we should be thankful for. There would always be a time when we wish to end this life in order to end our sufferings but we should keep in mind that God is always there ready to help us when we need Him. We just have to ask for His help. No matter how difficult our challenges would be, we should held our head up high and say, "I can do this."

Problems will always be there. We can't hide nor ignore them. We just have to face them. Every problem has its own solution, just like any Math problem. Although there is no formula for that, I'm sure there's a solution it.

As I was writing this one, I realized that I should be a stronger person in order to keep others strong. Life won't be that easy. We just have to live with it. We have to love it.

Live. Love. Laugh.